Saturday, January 31, 2009

Blind for a day...

Early this morning i went to the eye doctor for my annual check up... The receptionist asked me if i would like to add an even more thorough exam for $39... Supposidely the more thorough exam looks at the whole eye and can show the eye doctor if i have any health problems, etc. I casually asked if there were going to be any flashing lights or eye drops (my biggest nightmare!). She said yes and i quickly calmed myself down and told myself that a few eye drops wont kill me (i cant even wear contacts because i hate putting anything in my eye and it took the last eye doctor 30 minutes to get one eye drop in my eye, so you can imagine how tense i was feeling)... The exam went fine except i blinked too often and i had to retake the photos of my eyes about 20 times (the technitions were not pleased, especially when the eye doctor finally came over to see what was taking so long and said she would do it herself, and proceeded to order me not to blink my eye as the technition stood next to me pressing my head against the machine so that i couldnt back up!!!) Finally when i thought the eye exam was finished the doctor told me she now needed to dilate my eyes, that is when i saw the two bottles of eye drops in her hand.... she tried to reassure me that it wouldnt hurt (her accent was thick and all i heard was will hurt.......)thats when i saw the 2 technitions at the door walking toward my chair.... the doctor had each tech hold my arms down so that i wouldnt move and grabbed my eyelid to lift it up so that she could get the drops in my about horror!!! I begged her to let me hold my eye open, she finally agreed, thankgod!
I was told that my eyes might stay dilated for 24 hours and will be sensitive to light..... whats the big deal i thought, i can handle some sensitivity to light..... she gave me a pair of glasses to wear outside and i headed home.
A few hours later, one of my eyes went back to normal, however the other eye was still dilated and made my vision blurry. I had to run some errands so i figured it would go away if i put the glasses on. I got in my car and put my glasses on and was fine...... when i got to the grocery store to do some shopping i figured id be fine without the glasses and took them off. BIG MISTAKE!!! 2 minutes later, the lights were glaring down at me and my right eye was blurry and i could barely make my way through the isles. I contemplated going back to the car to get my glasses but felt a bit shy wearing the huge glasses she had given me....
i quickly finished shopping and ran to my car and put my glasses back on, what a relief my eyes felt so much better. I then realized that if i want to see i need to keep the glasses on, especially since one eye was still dilated.
I then headed to the library to grab a few books i needed and this time i worked up enough courage to put the glasses on. I felt very awkward and wanted to tell people that my eyes were dilated and that is why i am wearing huge glasses (which by the way did not have arms on them, they just sat on my nose and the sides of the glasses attached to my cheeks (weird i know).
This experience taught me a lot. First, things such as vision, hearing, sense of smell, taste, are things i easily take advantage of. I should be thanking Allah daily that he gave me these things, especially since there are a lot of people who are blind, deaf or mute.

Allahumma inni a'udhu bika minal-barasi, wal-jununi, wal-judhami, wa sayyi'il-asqami'

O Allah! I seek refuge in You from leucoderma, insanity, leprosy and evil diseases
[abu Dawud, #8/1549]
Anas (ra) reported that the Prophet (salAllahu alayhi wasalam) used to supplicate (the above)

La ilaha ilAllah al-‘Adheem al-Haleem, la ilaha ilAllah Rabb al-Arsh al-‘adheem, la ilaha ilAllah Rabb as-Samawat wa Rabb al-Ard wa Rabb al-Arsh al-Kareem

There is no god but Allah, the All-Powerful, the Forbearing; there is no god but Allah, Lord of the mighty Throne; there is no god but Allah, Lord of heaven, Lord of earth, and Lord of the noble Throne.

[Sahih al-Bukhari, 8/154, Muslim, 4/2092]
Ibn Abbas (ra) reported that when the Prophet (saws) felt distressed he would say (the above)

اللهم انى اسئلك فرجا قريبا وصبرا اجميلا ورزقا و اسعا و العافية من جميع البلآء و اسئلك تمام العافية و اسئلك دوام العافية واسئلك الشكر على العافية و اسئلك الغنى عن الناس و ا حول و لا قوة الا با لله العلى العضيم

Allahumma inni as'aluka farajan qariban, wa sabran jameelan, wa rizqan wasi'an, wal 'afiyata min jami'il-bala'i, wa as'aluka tammamal-'afiyati wa as'aluka dawamal-'afiyati, wa as'aluka-sh-shukha'alal 'afiyati, wa as'alukal-ghina 'anin-naasi, wa la hawla wa la quwwata illa billahil 'aliyyil-adhim.

O Allah, I ask You of immediate prosperity, and beautiful patience against misery and affliction, and abundance in sustenance, and peace from all misfortunes; and I also ask You for perfect and perpetual peace of mind, and I ask You to enable me to give thanks for granting me peace, and I ask You (to make me prosperous enough) to be needless of other people, and I cannot be saved (from sins) nor have I power (for good deeds), but by the help of Allah, the Sublime, the Great.

اللَّهُمَّ أذْهِبَ الْبَاسَ رَبَّ النَّاسِ، اشْفِ وَ أنْتَ الشَّافِى، لا شِفاَءَ إلّا شِفاَؤُكَ، شِفاَءً لَا يُغاَدِرُ سِقَماً

Allahumma adhhibal-bas, Rabb-annaas, ishfi wa Anatal Shaafi, la shifaa' 'illa Shiaa'uk, Shifa'al la youghadiru saqama

O Allah, Remove the Hardship, Oh Lord of Mankind, Grant cure, for You are the Healer, There is not Cure but from You, cure which leaves no illness behind
(while patting the sick person, recite)
[Sahih al-Bukhari]


NiDa said...

awww that is soo true sister. That is something i fear most - the loss of sight. I even hate going to the doctors-- HATE! I don't like people touching me lol - that's a nightmare. InshaAllah your eyes are better now :)!

Thirst For Knowledge said...

salaam alaikum sis,

How are you? =)
I too fear losing my sight or hearing and i absolutely hate going to the eye doctor!!! I cannot stand having anything put into my eye or touching my eye. Alhamdulillah my eyes are back to normal. This experience taught me that i should be thankful that even if i lose my sight for a day it will come back, whereas other people never get their sight back!!!

Desert-Veil said...

Awee sis, I remember getting mine eyes dialated not to long ago at work! HOW INSANE WAS THAT! My manager thought that I had gone retarded because the lights in wal-mart hurt even with the glasses on because they are so bright. Needless to say I was just glad that it was over with...THOUGH I don't much fear the eye doctor as I do the dentist, it's the drill that bothers me and HA HA I married one! Go figure :o) I'm glad that your ok sweetie take care! *Hugs*